Thursday, April 28, 2011

I Quit!

That's it, I'm done!  I can't do this any longer.  If I keep trying I'm going to drown.  I feel so overwhelmed.  It's impossible to do it all.  I can't make everyone happy.  I don't know how to be a good wife and mother let alone a friend, pastor's wife, worship leader, music ministry leader, Bible study leader.  I can't do it!  I give up. 

I am not strong enough!

I've put up a front for so long.  I try to look confident and put together.  I pretend that I know what I'm doing.  But just when I get one thing figured out, another thing pops up.  When is it going to end???

Then I hear God gently say, "When you surrender it all to me."

God, I want to surrender, but I don't even know how to do that.  I've carried the weight for so long; I don't know how to release it.

My child, just lay it down and walk away.

But what if I need it?  What if I can't walk without that weight?

My child, just lay it down at my feet and walk away.

But God, I don't think I'm strong enough to release this burden.

Lisa, you don't have to be strong enough.  Don't you understand that?

Oh God, I need you!  I'm so broken.

I've always been here, waiting for you. 

Lord, right now I surrender to you.  If you want me to do these things, then I need You to be strong enough.  Give me faith to believe that I can do all things through your strength.  All thingsALL THINGS
ALL THINGS!  

I don't have to be strong enough.  I do everything through His strength, not mine.  I give up and look up.  Now I am wholly surrendered.

If ever there was song that depicts exactly how I feel right now, it is this song.




11 comments:

  1. Thank you for your encouragement Lisa! I so enjoy your blog! Usually when I get to this point God reminds me that in my weakness HE is made strong. [2 Corinthians 12:10)Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.]
    Once (or maybe a few times) He had to remind me that I was acting like the world was stronger than HIM! Can you believe we think that way sometimes! We DO! Or we keep God in a box, and give(yes I said it) Him the things we think He can handle. Remember Genesis 18:14, Is nothing too difficult for God! God is so Great and Mighty! Pray and give all things to HIM. I need to remember that daily and am praying for those things that bring me down. Some days I am not always successful, but I know where to go for my strength!

    Psalm 73:26
    My flesh and my heart may fail,But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

    In His Service;
    Sandy Foreman

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  2. We are made stronger in Him. It is ONLY in Him that we can find rest for our weary soul. And I am weary. I know you are weary. So we must find rest in His presence. If I have to do all this on my own, then I quit too. But if I have God with me, I will press on. Praying for you and love you sweet sister.

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  3. Lisa, this is exactly how I've been feeling. How in the world will I do Kidz Klub with out 'my team?' I have no idea, but I know that God does. He will have to bring about a 'new team' since He has apparently called the current team elsewhere! It's in His hands. My 'song' of late is the new one by Mandisa...Stronger! I am so weak and frail...I can't do it with out God! And, I don't want to! I'm praying for you...

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  4. 'I give up and look up and am wholly surrendered'....love this! Wow! Just what I needed today. Loved the song also.

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  5. Praying for you sweet girl. I totally get it. I feel that way every few months it seems like. But clinging and grabbing onto God during that time is the best solution! When we are used to doing things on our own, it's hard to let go and let God.Love the song too..."I don't have to be strong enough...I can do ALL things through Christ.!" Great post!!

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  6. This is the post I have trying to write and simply could not find the words, it is as if you have been living my life and plucked the thoughts right from my head. Surrendering, laying it down, handing it over has been a recurring theme in my life lately, I need to let go and I just can't do it, I don't know how to do it, I don't even know what that looks like. Thank you for the courage to write this, we are not alone in our struggles.

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  7. Psalms 63:6-8 Says-"On my bed I remember you; I think of you through the watches of the night. Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings. My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me.

    :-)

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  8. The comment above that appears to be from me was actually from my sweet husband.

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  9. I've hit that point more than once in the last several months Lisa, and each time God's showed me that He's the one I need to let run the show. He doesn't want us to handle it all ourselves, but instead to lay our burdens at His Feet and follow His lead. :-)

    Have a Blessed Day!

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  10. I heart you dear friend :)

    2 Cor. 12:9 is going through my head... "My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness." So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me."

    **Keep boasting about your weaknesses... His power is working through you!

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  11. This really hit home for me. I started my business almost four years ago. A business that came about because of our precious child. He was born 3 months early and ended up being on oxygen for almost 2 years. We were told he wasn't going to survive and he did, he is our "Why" and our Miracle. I ended up designing a backpack that carries Oxygen because of our experience. I have helped many families because of our experience and with our product. It has been a huge struggle financially and a lot of times I don't know how I can stay in business. This business is my heart and soul, walking away from it just breaks my heart. I have been told I need to turn it over completely to God and that if I'm meant to continue he will show me the way but it is so hard some days. This post is exactly what I needed to see. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am trusting and turning it over to God.

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